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Heather U
Sent a random letter out to a site that proclaimed they will listen to my problems and help me out. They did listen and they wrote back. It's nice, but it doesn't take these feelings away.
I want out. And the only reason I'm still here is because of Hell.
I always wish that it were me in the car accident on Highway 69, or the one on FOX news who got murdered, or even the one who died of cancer. Those people want to live, I don't. Let me have their way out.
I can't go on. I know I'm only 21 and I've heard many times that life will get better. But it hasn't since I was 13. It got worse.
I love my friends and family and they're the second reason I haven't done it yet. I don't want them to hate me for doing this selfish thing. They just wouldn't understand.
I've searched and searched trying to find the answers. The easiest way. The quickest way. The smart way. How to do it. Where to do it. Should I leave a note behind?
But something keeps me holding on when all I want to do is let go. Why?
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Just hold on to what you love. You love your family. Hold on to them with all that you have. You would not be selfish for doing that, but i can tell that deep down there is something holding you back. Maybe you have a purpose that you haven't filled, something that hasn't been lived. There is always hope, even in the deep crevices of sorrow. I know i don't have much room to talk, and I am sorry if i sound like some lame teen who has no idea what she is talking about...I have suffered from a mild version of what you are going through for awhile now. And honestly the only thing that has halfway pulled me out of it is my faith. Faith in God. But it doesn't have to be a spiritual thing. Just faith in anything...future love and relationships, just even something little like a future smile. Maybe talk to someone you can trust about your sadness...? i don't know. If you wanna talk here is my email. asoccer6@gmail.com.
Just hold on to what you love. You love your family. Hold on to them with all that you have. You would not be selfish for doing that, but i can tell that deep down there is something holding you back. Maybe you have a purpose that you haven't filled, something that hasn't been lived. There is always hope, even in the deep crevices of sorrow. I know i don't have much room to talk, and I am sorry if i sound like some lame teen who has no idea what she is talking about...I have suffered from a mild version of what you are going through for awhile now. And honestly the only thing that has halfway pulled me out of it is my faith. Faith in God. But it doesn't have to be a spiritual thing. Just faith in anything...future love and relationships, just even something little like a future smile. Maybe talk to someone you can trust about your sadness...? i don't know. If you wanna talk here is my email. asoccer6@gmail.com.
Survey: 70 random questions for bored people?
Not you
Feel free to quit anytime :D
1.When was the last time you cried?
2.Have you ever faked sick?
3.What was the last lie you said?
4.Have you ever cried during a movie?
5.Have you ever danced in the rain?
6.Have you ever been drunk?
7.Do you smoke?
8.What is your full name?
9.What is your blood-type?
10.Have you ever been in a car accident?
11.How old were you when you received your first kiss?
12.Who was your first kiss?
13.Have you ever had an online relationship?
14.Have you ever been rejected by a crush?
15.What is your favourite sport to play?
16.Have you ever made a prank phone call?
17.Have you ever said "I Love you" and not meant it?
18.Is there anything that you have done that you regret?
19.What do you want to be when you grow up?
20.What is your political persuassion?
21.Do you believe in g-d?
22.Do you believe in love at first sight?
23.Do you believe in karma?
24.Who was your first crush?
25.Who do yo uhave a crush on?
26.How would you describe yourself?
27.What are you afraid of?
28.Are you religious?
29.What does your screen name mean?
30.What person do you trust the most?
*Only 40 questions to go!*
31.Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend?
32.What is the best compliment you have ever received?
33.What is the meanest thing anyone has said about you?
34.What is the longest crush/relationship you have had?
35.What is your greatest strength?
36.What is your greatest weakness?
37.What is your perfect pizza?
38.What is your first thought when waking up in the morning?
39.What is your first thought before you go to bed?
40.What college do you want to go to?
41.Do you get along with your family?
42.Do you play any instruments?
43.What kind of music do you like?
44.Would you ever get a tattoo?
45.How many piercings do you have?
46.Who makes you laugh?
47.Who would you want to be tied to for 24hours?
48.Have you ever seen a dead body?
49.Do you have a celebrity crush?
50.What is one thing scientists should invent?
51.Have you ever broken a bone?
52.What happens after you die?
53.Do you watch or read the news?
54.What stereotype would you label yourself as being?
55.Would your friends agree with that stereotyped label?
56.If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
57.If you could go back in time to one point in your life, where would you go?
58.If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change?
59.Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
60.Would you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves?
*10 questions to go, congratulations if you've made it this far!*
61.What do you want your friends to think about you?
62.HAve you ever bitten someone?
63.Have you ever stolen anything?
64.Do you make wishes on shooting stars?
65.If you could go back and change one day, what would it be?
66.Do you remember your dreams?
67.Have you ever been in love?
68.Are you a morning person or a night person?
69.Do you have any phobias?
70.Have you ever been to the hospital (other then birth?
YOU MADE IT! :O
Optional: Did you have fun?
Word to the people who actually did this!
Answer
Wow...a challenge. :)
1.When was the last time you cried? Yesterday
2.Have you ever faked sick? Yes
3.What was the last lie you said? Can't remember
4.Have you ever cried during a movie? Yes
5.Have you ever danced in the rain? Yes
6.Have you ever been drunk? Yes
7.Do you smoke? Only when I'm on fire
8.What is your full name?
9.What is your blood-type? Won't answer...this is the internet email me if you want to know.
10.Have you ever been in a car accident? Yes
11.How old were you when you received your first kiss? 14
12.Who was your first kiss? Robyn
13.Have you ever had an online relationship? Not serious
14.Have you ever been rejected by a crush? Yes
15.What is your favourite sport to play? Golf and Tennis
16.Have you ever made a prank phone call? Yes
17.Have you ever said "I Love you" and not meant it? No
18.Is there anything that you have done that you regret? No
19.What do you want to be when you grow up? Already there and doing it :)
20.What is your political persuassion? Libertarian
21.Do you believe in g-d? Y-s
22.Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes
23.Do you believe in karma? No, the definition of it is much more complicated, I've studied Hinduism
24.Who was your first crush? Tracy C
25.Who do yo uhave a crush on? Several people atm
26.How would you describe yourself? I am me
27.What are you afraid of? Heights
28.Are you religious? No
29.What does your screen name mean? My initials, lucky number and way of life
30.What person do you trust the most? My children
*Only 40 questions to go!* Yay
31.Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? Robyn
32.What is the best compliment you have ever received? I love you :)
33.What is the meanest thing anyone has said about you? "I don't trust you"
34.What is the longest crush/relationship you have had? 16 years
35.What is your greatest strength? Persistence
36.What is your greatest weakness? Faith in myself
37.What is your perfect pizza? Any kind!
38.What is your first thought when waking up in the morning? Oh no! not again!
39.What is your first thought before you go to bed? Help me survive the night
40.What college do you want to go to? U of Florida already done :)
41.Do you get along with your family? Sometimes
42.Do you play any instruments? No
43.What kind of music do you like? Rock, Classical
44.Would you ever get a tattoo? No, I hate needles :O
45.How many piercings do you have? Zero ...see above
46.Who makes you laugh? My daughters
47.Who would you want to be tied to for 24hours? Jennifer Aniston
48.Have you ever seen a dead body? Yes
49.Do you have a celebrity crush? Yes, see above
50.What is one thing scientists should invent? Time travel
51.Have you ever broken a bone? yes
52.What happens after you die? I dont want to know
53.Do you watch or read the news? Everyday
54.What stereotype would you label yourself as being? Geek/dork
55.Would your friends agree with that stereotyped label? Yes
56.If you could change your name, what would you change it to? Max Thrust
57.If you could go back in time to one point in your life, where would you go? I would stay right here, the past has passed
58.If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change? Nothing
59.Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Yes
60.Would you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves? No
*10 questions to go, congratulations if you've made it this far!*
61.What do you want your friends to think about you? That I would kill or die for them, they already know that
62.HAve you ever bitten someone? Yes
63.Have you ever stolen anything? Yes
64.Do you make wishes on shooting stars? Yes
65.If you could go back and change one day, what would it be? I would change nothing
66.Do you remember your dreams? Yes
67.Have you ever been in love? Yes
68.Are you a morning person or a night person? Morning
69.Do you have any phobias? Yes
70.Have you ever been to the hospital (other then birth? Yes
Wow...a challenge. :)
1.When was the last time you cried? Yesterday
2.Have you ever faked sick? Yes
3.What was the last lie you said? Can't remember
4.Have you ever cried during a movie? Yes
5.Have you ever danced in the rain? Yes
6.Have you ever been drunk? Yes
7.Do you smoke? Only when I'm on fire
8.What is your full name?
9.What is your blood-type? Won't answer...this is the internet email me if you want to know.
10.Have you ever been in a car accident? Yes
11.How old were you when you received your first kiss? 14
12.Who was your first kiss? Robyn
13.Have you ever had an online relationship? Not serious
14.Have you ever been rejected by a crush? Yes
15.What is your favourite sport to play? Golf and Tennis
16.Have you ever made a prank phone call? Yes
17.Have you ever said "I Love you" and not meant it? No
18.Is there anything that you have done that you regret? No
19.What do you want to be when you grow up? Already there and doing it :)
20.What is your political persuassion? Libertarian
21.Do you believe in g-d? Y-s
22.Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes
23.Do you believe in karma? No, the definition of it is much more complicated, I've studied Hinduism
24.Who was your first crush? Tracy C
25.Who do yo uhave a crush on? Several people atm
26.How would you describe yourself? I am me
27.What are you afraid of? Heights
28.Are you religious? No
29.What does your screen name mean? My initials, lucky number and way of life
30.What person do you trust the most? My children
*Only 40 questions to go!* Yay
31.Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? Robyn
32.What is the best compliment you have ever received? I love you :)
33.What is the meanest thing anyone has said about you? "I don't trust you"
34.What is the longest crush/relationship you have had? 16 years
35.What is your greatest strength? Persistence
36.What is your greatest weakness? Faith in myself
37.What is your perfect pizza? Any kind!
38.What is your first thought when waking up in the morning? Oh no! not again!
39.What is your first thought before you go to bed? Help me survive the night
40.What college do you want to go to? U of Florida already done :)
41.Do you get along with your family? Sometimes
42.Do you play any instruments? No
43.What kind of music do you like? Rock, Classical
44.Would you ever get a tattoo? No, I hate needles :O
45.How many piercings do you have? Zero ...see above
46.Who makes you laugh? My daughters
47.Who would you want to be tied to for 24hours? Jennifer Aniston
48.Have you ever seen a dead body? Yes
49.Do you have a celebrity crush? Yes, see above
50.What is one thing scientists should invent? Time travel
51.Have you ever broken a bone? yes
52.What happens after you die? I dont want to know
53.Do you watch or read the news? Everyday
54.What stereotype would you label yourself as being? Geek/dork
55.Would your friends agree with that stereotyped label? Yes
56.If you could change your name, what would you change it to? Max Thrust
57.If you could go back in time to one point in your life, where would you go? I would stay right here, the past has passed
58.If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change? Nothing
59.Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Yes
60.Would you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves? No
*10 questions to go, congratulations if you've made it this far!*
61.What do you want your friends to think about you? That I would kill or die for them, they already know that
62.HAve you ever bitten someone? Yes
63.Have you ever stolen anything? Yes
64.Do you make wishes on shooting stars? Yes
65.If you could go back and change one day, what would it be? I would change nothing
66.Do you remember your dreams? Yes
67.Have you ever been in love? Yes
68.Are you a morning person or a night person? Morning
69.Do you have any phobias? Yes
70.Have you ever been to the hospital (other then birth? Yes
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